Post by Lady Lasa on May 21, 2009 21:29:17 GMT -5
A/N: Alright, I went ahead and did it. This is so far beyond my comfort zone that I'm really hesitant about it. I generally don't do Romance and I've never done Angst. So, constructive criticism is welcome. I haven't decided whether to put this up on FFNet or just keep it here.
The song is Eclipsed by Evans Blue: www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-bpNG0CUO0
I don't own the song or Ben 10. Karian, however, is mine. This is told from his point of view.
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Eclipsed
Time changes everything. Some say that it heals all wounds, but I’ve always found that to be a ridiculously romantic notion. Some pain never goes away. It can be eased, though. Friendship, trust, and even love can find a way to help diminish the scars of a tragic past.
At least, that’s how I’m trying to look at it.
We love our tragedies.
When we're broken in our own little ways
We're broken but we fit together just right
You know I saw the black inside your eyes
I saw they were eclipsed by mine… and they looked just right.
One of the first things I noticed about him was how his eyes were so similar to my own. They held the same emerald hue, only a shade lighter perhaps. Then again, it’s been two years since I’ve been able to see my own reflection. The gods only know what mine looks like now.
It’s rare that I allow anyone to get close to me. Three people come to mind: my twin sister Cassandra, my adoptive brother Dravias, and now Ben. Now that I’m in self-imposed exile from my homeland, and now that only two of the three are still alive, I’ve found myself yearning for something to hold on to. Or someone.
When our lights meet, will you know me then?
And will you want to know it?
It feels like I've known you for so long.
When our lights meet, will you want me then?
And will you ever know it?
It seems like you've known me for so long.
I tried to dismiss him as soon as I met him. I realize now what a fool I was to even try. I remember the first time we fought side-by-side. He came to my aid, even when I told him that I didn’t want his help. To be honest, thinking back on it, I’m glad he was there. I could have easily killed all of our adversaries that night, but I held back for his sake. There are some things that one so young shouldn’t have to see.
He was genuinely concerned. I didn’t deserve his compassion. I still don’t. I trusted him, though. He didn’t judge me for what I was or what I had done in the past. He never saw me as the monster I thought I was. Perhaps that’s why I fell so hard for him.
I love your analogies.
We're both crazy in our own little ways.
We talk about the future and our past lives.
I know loved you then.
I know I’d love you now.
I know I'll love you then.
I know I love you now.
It never seemed to matter to him that I wasn’t human. If my… restricted diet so to speak ever bothered him, he never let it show. Even now, we can sit together over drinks without him showing the slightest hint of discomfort as I sip the crimson liquid that my body craves.
He’ll laugh and joke about things that I’ve never even heard of, but I’ll cherish every moment. Sometimes, he’ll stop to explain the reference, but usually I’ll just laugh with him. It feels so good to laugh again. I’d almost forgotten how wonderful happiness can feel.
When our lights meet, will you know me then?
And will you want to know it?
It feels like I've known you for so long.
When our lights meet, will you want me then?
And will you ever know it?
It seems like you've known me for so long.
How is it that I can trust him so easily? Even after spending most of my life mistrusting nearly everyone, I can open up to him without fear of betrayal. He cares; that much is obvious. But does he care as much as I do?
Perhaps it was the fact that he saved my life. That is, if you can even call this existence life. Sometimes, the pain can get unbearable and the only option seems to be self-destruction. He pulled me back from the edge, though. Before he arrived that night, I was determined to end this cursed existence, but he refused to allow me to follow that course.
But you can't have everything you want when you want it.
I can’t delude myself into thinking he feels the same. He knows how I feel, but he’s never offered anything more than friendship.
I will be everything you want, when you want it.
He’s still young, though. I have eternity before me, so I suppose I should learn patience. He’ll come to me when he’s ready.
Wait for me. Trust for me.
Fall for me. Even when you don't know you’re falling for me.
Will you fall for it, if this comes around again?
I can wait. When he’s older, he’ll know this is right. He’ll understand how much I care about him. I can see that he’s trying to figure it out even now. It’s only a matter of time.
But, don't wait for me. And don't trust in me. Don't fall me.
Even when you know you're falling for me.
Is that really what’s best though? It’s dangerous for people to get close to me, especially humans. I almost killed him once. When his voice finally broke through the haze of bloodlust, he was nearly dead. Perhaps I shouldn’t allow him to figure it out. I should encourage him to meet someone else. Someone safe. Would fate even allow that, though?
When our lights meet, will you know me then?
And will you want to know it?
It feels like I've known you for so long.
When our lights meet, will you want me then?
And will you ever know it?
It seems like you've known me for so long.
He knows me better than anyone, even my own twin. Then again, I’ve spent more time with him and I had been separated from her for sixteen years. There’s something more, though; a deeper connection. I wonder if he sees it too.
Here I am trying to convince myself that he’s interested in more than friendship. Again. Gods, what a fool I’m being. Is this what it’s like to be in love? Foolish thoughts and hopes?
He understands. He has to.
When our hearts meet, will we make it then?
Will we even notice that they are eclipsed?
One day, he’ll realize the truth of his own feelings. Even though my heart no longer beats, I can still feel love. The little signs give me hope. The secret smiles. The way his heartbeat quickens slightly when he sees me.
One day, Ben and I will be together.
The song is Eclipsed by Evans Blue: www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-bpNG0CUO0
I don't own the song or Ben 10. Karian, however, is mine. This is told from his point of view.
******************************************
Eclipsed
Time changes everything. Some say that it heals all wounds, but I’ve always found that to be a ridiculously romantic notion. Some pain never goes away. It can be eased, though. Friendship, trust, and even love can find a way to help diminish the scars of a tragic past.
At least, that’s how I’m trying to look at it.
We love our tragedies.
When we're broken in our own little ways
We're broken but we fit together just right
You know I saw the black inside your eyes
I saw they were eclipsed by mine… and they looked just right.
One of the first things I noticed about him was how his eyes were so similar to my own. They held the same emerald hue, only a shade lighter perhaps. Then again, it’s been two years since I’ve been able to see my own reflection. The gods only know what mine looks like now.
It’s rare that I allow anyone to get close to me. Three people come to mind: my twin sister Cassandra, my adoptive brother Dravias, and now Ben. Now that I’m in self-imposed exile from my homeland, and now that only two of the three are still alive, I’ve found myself yearning for something to hold on to. Or someone.
When our lights meet, will you know me then?
And will you want to know it?
It feels like I've known you for so long.
When our lights meet, will you want me then?
And will you ever know it?
It seems like you've known me for so long.
I tried to dismiss him as soon as I met him. I realize now what a fool I was to even try. I remember the first time we fought side-by-side. He came to my aid, even when I told him that I didn’t want his help. To be honest, thinking back on it, I’m glad he was there. I could have easily killed all of our adversaries that night, but I held back for his sake. There are some things that one so young shouldn’t have to see.
He was genuinely concerned. I didn’t deserve his compassion. I still don’t. I trusted him, though. He didn’t judge me for what I was or what I had done in the past. He never saw me as the monster I thought I was. Perhaps that’s why I fell so hard for him.
I love your analogies.
We're both crazy in our own little ways.
We talk about the future and our past lives.
I know loved you then.
I know I’d love you now.
I know I'll love you then.
I know I love you now.
It never seemed to matter to him that I wasn’t human. If my… restricted diet so to speak ever bothered him, he never let it show. Even now, we can sit together over drinks without him showing the slightest hint of discomfort as I sip the crimson liquid that my body craves.
He’ll laugh and joke about things that I’ve never even heard of, but I’ll cherish every moment. Sometimes, he’ll stop to explain the reference, but usually I’ll just laugh with him. It feels so good to laugh again. I’d almost forgotten how wonderful happiness can feel.
When our lights meet, will you know me then?
And will you want to know it?
It feels like I've known you for so long.
When our lights meet, will you want me then?
And will you ever know it?
It seems like you've known me for so long.
How is it that I can trust him so easily? Even after spending most of my life mistrusting nearly everyone, I can open up to him without fear of betrayal. He cares; that much is obvious. But does he care as much as I do?
Perhaps it was the fact that he saved my life. That is, if you can even call this existence life. Sometimes, the pain can get unbearable and the only option seems to be self-destruction. He pulled me back from the edge, though. Before he arrived that night, I was determined to end this cursed existence, but he refused to allow me to follow that course.
But you can't have everything you want when you want it.
I can’t delude myself into thinking he feels the same. He knows how I feel, but he’s never offered anything more than friendship.
I will be everything you want, when you want it.
He’s still young, though. I have eternity before me, so I suppose I should learn patience. He’ll come to me when he’s ready.
Wait for me. Trust for me.
Fall for me. Even when you don't know you’re falling for me.
Will you fall for it, if this comes around again?
I can wait. When he’s older, he’ll know this is right. He’ll understand how much I care about him. I can see that he’s trying to figure it out even now. It’s only a matter of time.
But, don't wait for me. And don't trust in me. Don't fall me.
Even when you know you're falling for me.
Is that really what’s best though? It’s dangerous for people to get close to me, especially humans. I almost killed him once. When his voice finally broke through the haze of bloodlust, he was nearly dead. Perhaps I shouldn’t allow him to figure it out. I should encourage him to meet someone else. Someone safe. Would fate even allow that, though?
When our lights meet, will you know me then?
And will you want to know it?
It feels like I've known you for so long.
When our lights meet, will you want me then?
And will you ever know it?
It seems like you've known me for so long.
He knows me better than anyone, even my own twin. Then again, I’ve spent more time with him and I had been separated from her for sixteen years. There’s something more, though; a deeper connection. I wonder if he sees it too.
Here I am trying to convince myself that he’s interested in more than friendship. Again. Gods, what a fool I’m being. Is this what it’s like to be in love? Foolish thoughts and hopes?
He understands. He has to.
When our hearts meet, will we make it then?
Will we even notice that they are eclipsed?
One day, he’ll realize the truth of his own feelings. Even though my heart no longer beats, I can still feel love. The little signs give me hope. The secret smiles. The way his heartbeat quickens slightly when he sees me.
One day, Ben and I will be together.
